the reluctant masochist

Can the ultimate pleasure be to crave only the unattainable? To be so consumed by desire for what one cannot have, that one knows neither having nor parting with what one has?

Wanting might be better than having, but only because to want costs next to nothing whereas to have could cost everything. As a corollary, being unwanted is worse than being unhad...

[18.22 Fri 16-Jul-2004]